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My father is selfish I can say. And as far as I know, he only wants us to give him money and nothing else...He wanted that and these and if I don't give him that, he must be very angry with me. And that's the time he will start and try to say words that are very hurting inside to listen to, words that may devastate you, make you down and make you realize how small you are as you live with him and your family. That is how I'm going to describe my papa today. His anger to me has no place to keep. And it really finds me so pathetic and down every time I heard those words that he always say to me. I know I can't please him no matter what, but my mind is saying me to do things that would make him realized that am worth it as his son. I did my best, I did my part just for him to be proud of me somehow. But still nothing and I think that;s not gonna work out. And so this time, what he told me recently was just to go and stay away from the house for the reason that I'...

August 28, 2011 -This date is the date that i would never ever forget. Yes i did, have made a decision. And it really hurts me a lot though. Yet, as what i've said, i'll embrace whatever the results and consequences. I love my father, but i hate what he is doing to us!! Bata pa lang ako, masaya na akong nakita ko ang mundo. Masaya, puno ng pag-mamahalan, puno ng kasiyahan. Pero 'di mo rin akalain na sa bandang huli, marami itong pagsubok at mga problemang darating sa buhay ko... Hangad ko ang lumigaya kapiling ang aking mga magulang, mga kapatid kong lahat lalaki. Nagsumikap ako at kahit hindi ako nakapag-aral sa kolehiyo. hindi ko kailanman napagtanong ang aking mga magulang kung bakit ganun. Oo, naghanap ako ng paraan para makatulong sa kanila. Bunso ako at lahat ng kapatid ko, may trabaho na rin. Nagka-trabaho ako,at simula nun, inisip kong pagbubutihan ko ang trabaho ko at aalagaan ko ito, ng sa ganun man eh, makitaan ako ng potential ng aking boss. Nakatulong ...