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I may be tough and strong, but through the years, let me just tell to every people and let the world know how so unfair my life was. I keep on asking and questioning my God, "Is this what He really planned for me?". I always consider this life was a mess, but every time I see myself struggling, I will never forget of thinking that these are only what they called challenges, a stone running over me as I walk through the pathways which I am not actually sure if it's really the right path to go forward to. There were times I blame God, He's very unfair, why is it happening? Why are these things are coming when I can only think about giving a full attention into it?  It's hard. Before when I was a teen, I promised to fulfill every dreams my family had, dreams I had and every thing we wanted. But after my high school, I almost forgot that we are facing crisis, a crisis which have almost steal my faith in God. I almost lose my faith in believing to myself how am I ca...

Hi, this is an open letter to everyone I knew and to all who greeted me:     As we grow old, we realized of some things we did in our life were good, bad, negative and some were just nice, yet we consider those things funny and we even wonder time moves in a very indefinite way; we expect things to happen but only a small percentage of it can happen, we wanted to do a lot of things, but only few of those can be done and sometimes, we pray for a thing, but was not granted and given. This is a kind of life where a lot of 'questions' cannot be answered, a lot of answers but we never realized it was the answer of those questions we asked. As we live, we are not alone, and believe me, we can't be all alone. We can't live without socializing to other people. God has made people ever since the world begun, because we need them and they need us too, but in what way? A LOT, and you only have to think many times for you to be able to recognize those. One way we d...

No matter how hard we try to do things perfectly, we really experience “failure”. It’s already part of our life for us to learn things and for us to do the right things for the second time around. We believed for only one belief, we think of those things that we do it would better or best, but we have  no assurance, we meet people, we meet things that are new to us, but after all, we have different choices to take, we’ve set our mind to choose the best thing ever. And sometimes, by choosing things, in a long run, we see results, but it’s unexpected, it’s unpredictable, no one knows not even you, now the point there is just by handling it positively. Each of us primarily has our own purpose driven life. We drive through, we see places and venues, and we talk to acquaintances and casually friends. So how about the real score in life? Love? Well, it’s really the goal, learning from it is indeed the real objective, in fact, by this, we conquer all. But how about the oth...

I have decided to leave, to quit, surrender and start again to another page chapter of life. I started to lived with it, though I really dreamed about it, I cried and I long for it... I spend all my efforts I can just for them to be pleased... Before anything else, please bear with me when the moment comes that my tears would overflow, I just don't know how to stop this such an emotional thing to share.. :( My life after 2 years has never been the happier than before, for the last last  year, I met God and knew Him coincidentally, since then, I have given my sense of having good objectives on my own life, as I have started to lived with it, I never assume for something good will be happening to me for tomorrow... "GO WITH THE FLOW OF LIFE!" Taking and grabbing opportunities, that time, I never knew with myself that opportunities don't come, but actually they just wait on us to take them instantly by every moment in time that take... I was being hired by a pr...