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Dreams are logically impossible to make it happen, however, one unique way to do so is that you are able to catch everything what it tells you. Dreams are made in three distinctions; it already happened, it never happened, and it can happen. With all the confusions it gave us, it all sound funny and wondering. In the real world, we contrast dreams as our goals, we call it "follow your dreams!", and it doesn't literally mean you have dream the last time you slept, but what it really mean is dreaming about what kind of life do you want to live at the end of the day. And this our GOALS. Goals are impossible to reach without a fix planning. And planning can be useless without a clear goal. Sometime we are very conscious about "what" will be coming next when you do an act or when you start fulfilling your plans. It doesn't goes like that as the real score, but it is when you try to think about "how" things are going to be done in order your plans ...

Maybe you're thinking about how will be this post can give you an assurance of proper closure of your agony, your feelings and most of all, your bitterness. Moving on is never an easy thing that goes around instantly, it is not like the other way around, but it's absolutely a serious process for you to be serious about. Maybe you are thinking what remedy can you give for your own self, to help you step out and leave the scars, perhaps for a short period of time. Before you start reading the plot of this post, try to change your mood from being anxious, problematic, traumatized (perhaps), or even like, change your mood into cool yet empty from pessimism. Open your mind and heart, I would say, that the more you become cool, the more will life can offer you pieces of success when it comes to gaining of alternatives and better options for life after tragedies, breakups, devastations and so on. According to my own understanding, our feelings have two divisions, the feelings of ...

I may be tough and strong, but through the years, let me just tell to every people and let the world know how so unfair my life was. I keep on asking and questioning my God, "Is this what He really planned for me?". I always consider this life was a mess, but every time I see myself struggling, I will never forget of thinking that these are only what they called challenges, a stone running over me as I walk through the pathways which I am not actually sure if it's really the right path to go forward to. There were times I blame God, He's very unfair, why is it happening? Why are these things are coming when I can only think about giving a full attention into it?  It's hard. Before when I was a teen, I promised to fulfill every dreams my family had, dreams I had and every thing we wanted. But after my high school, I almost forgot that we are facing crisis, a crisis which have almost steal my faith in God. I almost lose my faith in believing to myself how am I ca...

Hi, this is an open letter to everyone I knew and to all who greeted me:     As we grow old, we realized of some things we did in our life were good, bad, negative and some were just nice, yet we consider those things funny and we even wonder time moves in a very indefinite way; we expect things to happen but only a small percentage of it can happen, we wanted to do a lot of things, but only few of those can be done and sometimes, we pray for a thing, but was not granted and given. This is a kind of life where a lot of 'questions' cannot be answered, a lot of answers but we never realized it was the answer of those questions we asked. As we live, we are not alone, and believe me, we can't be all alone. We can't live without socializing to other people. God has made people ever since the world begun, because we need them and they need us too, but in what way? A LOT, and you only have to think many times for you to be able to recognize those. One way we d...

"No man is an island..." The best thing in life I think so far is from having friends, a set and a groupf friends. Sometimes, there are things that we can not able to reach when we are alone. That at first we thought we can do it but actually not. Sometimes we thought that being alone is a constant thing when finally we fae death. As we live, we live by our own choice of destinations, we choose life, and from choosing life, there are lots of lifestyles that we can experience in the future. We choose people to be our friend and to be our partner in troubled times. There are things that are hard tp get, we thought it was easy but when we tried to reach it out, its hard, and thats the time we realized that from living our life is a challenge, a challenge to seek the right people whom you could able to ask for help. No man is an island. Its just a simple quote that makes us realized that we cannot live without them, that if ever we live, still something is lacking... N...

Luma, simple at tipikal na kasabihan madalas kong marinig sa mga matatanda na magbubukid nakakausap ko sa kanayunan pero kung susuriin mo ng malalim relatibo sa kasalukuyang pag-uugali ng mga tao magbubukid,mangingisda,kabataan, kababaihan,mayaman man o mahirap at anumang sekswalidad ang kinapapalooban lapat para sa lahat ito. Noong bata pa ako, sabi ng Mama at Papa ko, napakasaya daw nila nung nakita nila ako, sabi, lahat daw ay ginawa nila upang ma-sustain lahat ng pangangailangan ko sa buong pamilya namin. Hindi ko man labis na ma-imagine kung gaano silang naghirap o nahirapan upang ma-meet nila yung kanilang gustong mangyarari sa amin sa pagdating ng panahon, subalit nung akoy nagkaroon ng sariling isip ay sadyang sa-realized ko na ganun na nga lamang ang kanilang pagmamahal sa akin mula nung ako naisilang at lumaking nagkaroon ng isip at paninindigan... Ang sabi nila sa akin, sa aking naaalala, kung ano daw yung gusto kong gawin, kung anumn yung pangarap ko a...

I do believe that my work has it’s own result in the end, it maybe in good or in a negative way,  I may fail at some point, some time, but I know I could ever recover, and I’ll get over it. I may even have critics and some may pull me down just for them to shine with for their own benefits. I am Eleazar, I have known to be called “Elly”. Actually, that was not really my nickname, my Lola and my parents don’t call me that back in my childhood times. I supposed to be just a kind of person who would just follow my dreams as my parents told me, particularly my ambition to be a great teacher someday, an educator that some may learn from my own ideas, my beliefs and my life, though. I supposed to be like a kind of person who knows to be a follower somehow, a person that as far as my parents know, I can do my very best just achieve my goal in life. So overwhelming, when life ha s brought me different kind of things, a lot of experiences and a lot of opportunities. I cam...

For the past 20 years, it's still very fresh and funny to recall all of my experiences.  Maybe the most unforgettable experience was my childhood. Yes, no matter how old am I today, when it comes to remembering my childhood, it seem to me a very happy life and so blessed with my relatives, when I know that all that was a very natural, you know, playing games and different kinds of stuffs that would make us feel happy at the end of the day, and just by living natural this thing made me realized that every day of my life was accountable, and by enjoying it, I can say that I was contented with what we have everyday, that by those simple things that we see around, we make fun of it.. Simple things, it was just like a little playground, that through these, I make the most out of it. I make fun, I make friends and I make myself happy. Simple things are those natural things that when you see them, you think it doesn't make sense, but when you try to thing about whats with tha...

No matter how hard we try to do things perfectly, we really experience “failure”. It’s already part of our life for us to learn things and for us to do the right things for the second time around. We believed for only one belief, we think of those things that we do it would better or best, but we have  no assurance, we meet people, we meet things that are new to us, but after all, we have different choices to take, we’ve set our mind to choose the best thing ever. And sometimes, by choosing things, in a long run, we see results, but it’s unexpected, it’s unpredictable, no one knows not even you, now the point there is just by handling it positively. Each of us primarily has our own purpose driven life. We drive through, we see places and venues, and we talk to acquaintances and casually friends. So how about the real score in life? Love? Well, it’s really the goal, learning from it is indeed the real objective, in fact, by this, we conquer all. But how about the oth...

Hi, first and foremost, would wanna say thank you for all the greetings on my Facebook Wall, it's really kind of refreshing, and I felt like I am special to anyone out there.. Uhm yeah, this is my 20th year of living on earth, my 20th year of experiences of such many and different things. Time is just so fast approaching, and yes this is really it! Well, this article will be all about something that would try to make us realized how beautiful life is, and of course, how did I became still standing and alive. The last thing I can remember I had my birthday celebration was, when I was 10, we had our own celebration of preparing foods, as far as I can remember, that was my favorite that time, suman, poto, biko and of course who can ever dare to forget pansit in the table, well they said, it symbolizes long life, duh' :) who knows?? heheh And pansit was trademark like, if we saw this kind of foods in the table, someone is celebrating his/her birthday...:) At 10, I am al...

Wrong misconceptions. Misunderstandings and deceived. Maybe that's how I would define how my  life is running through the years. I've got an attitude that I am presently calling it "rude", that sometimes, people always misunderstood me, like how the way I talk to them, behind the fact that I am an observant which makes me rude. Yeah, it may be my own opinion, it may be my own perception and observation, and it makes me aware of all of the things that people may hit me words like devastating and that hurting me so much. But this time around, I learned how to be positive enough for me not to be hurt, and in fairness of doing this such, I am doing good though. Behind those unworthiest, it just made me realize that life has no challenge even without trials and errors. Life is useless when you know you can't do mistake. In other words, how will you learn if you can do mistakes or let's just say, how will you learn if there's nobody teaching you in regards ...

Innocent, naive, unthinking careless and moose. Maybe I was like this before. Suddenly, when I grew up, I was like a great defender, debater and even I would say an innocent philosopher. It was about many years, I've bee in so many experiences in life. And those things, it made me realized things which I considered before non sense. Poverty, rural and mountains. - I've been there. Specially the life of being far in Cities. How I wish I could go back. I mean those things. In just a very million second in my life, I was like just a little kid before, innocent and living in a world of no people, in island that even animals were not around. Yet, today, I am missing. Hoping that someday, I could turn back those moments. Know why? I just realized that I've messed such a lot. Behind those laughters, enjoyment and happiness moments in me, I can't deny the fact that every little thing I did, 5 out of ten were mistakes and sins. And it really hurtin me when there are...

It is very refreshing and at the same time, got to handle things I never experienced yet...hooohhh, "Pathetic.." - maybe that is how I would going to describe my life today. Is it a consequence? And I really guess so...hahah But God indeed never gave consequences, as far as I know, He only wants me to learn ONE THING...-FAITH... That's the word, the only word that would make me fly, have life, have a very happy life and good future...Faith...It must be totally 100% full and plenty... How I wish to give my 100%..yes, I've done it, but in the long run, I know there were times I didn't do such, why? Well, practically, I'm still a human being....:( Now I am here, alone and feeling so lonely. Longing for someones shoulder to cry on...A father, he's not around and he's not on my side... I've gone away from our home... I admit it, I've done a lot of things to my father. And that's including negative and bad things. The last time I remem...

Have you ever feel excited EVERYDAY ?? ME?, yup! everyday is my exciting moment in my life. Maybe some says its foolishness, but I’m telling the truth.. I always make my day happy. Of course, that would not happen if you try to think that you are not really happy..hahah (get what i mean?) Oh yeah, let me give you some of my personal tips and ideas of how to make it not complicated at all.: When you wake up every morning, don’t get up yet –pray, and just thank God you’re alive that morning… After doing this, rise and make your face funny as what you want you be. Then, when you will be going out to your house, give your face a very clear and nice looking face. But by the way, when you wake up and start to go out, forget what had happen yesterday. Even if it was unforgettable. hahah Ok, next, walk straight and don’t ever put your head down –in other words how can the world know that you’re a world class Jesus’ Property? right? Anyway, lets make it very short. –When you...

............ bakit ang tao, kapag umuulan, nag re-reklamo sila na malamig. Kapag naman mainit ang panahon, nag re-reklamorin sila na napa-kainit!" That question always finds me ironic, it reminds me of something like people are being just themselves.... Noong bata pa ako, hindi ko naman naisip na darating ako sa pagkakataong mamumulatan ko ang mundong puno ng kasalanan, tentasyon at maruming pag-iisip. Napuno ako ng iba't-ibang mga tanong na kahit sinuman sa tingin ko ay walang ibang makakasagot kundi ako, ako na maaari kong sandata at paraan upang magkaroon ako ng kaalaman mula sa ibang bagay habang ako'y lumalaki at nag-kaka-isip. Mga tanong, na sinubukan ko ring itanong sa aking mga magulang, sa aking lolo at lola. Maski sila nga na maraming taon nang namumuhay sa mundo, eh hindi rin makapag-bigay ng kasagutan! Ang batang aking nakilala, naging kaibigan, naging kausap minsan at naging ka-kwentuhan ng kahit anong paksa, paksa na dapat sana'y pinag-uusapan l...

W hy is it that every time I do things which will make me happy has it's own consequences like I don't even expected it and I don't even know why it happened or why did I do that! :( (THE STORY STARTS HERE...) Am getting older and matured, and that also means, as I'm getting old, I got experiences like  "uncommon". I've been serving God over my whole life starting from the point I knew of Him. It was great, and having God in me has no replacement in the joy and happiness that He's giving me. Most of the time, as I do such things I wanted to, I know that It's a planned coincidences, and at the same time, I know that there will be results and consequences. As part of my learnings, like in the world, you live under in a so called "law" , governments policies and supervisions. Including the leaders of our country, like our President, there were people who will oppose and they were classified into "critics". Now, these things ...

Behind my 20 yrs of living here on earth, many things including problems that i have in me, the usual words that would come into my mind is " AGAIN!?! " ( in tagalog, "Na Naman!?!" ) hehehe. As I live with my parents, it doesn't mean we always have a good times, happiness and laughter, instead, living with them is one of the greatest challenge i considered ever. But first of all, i would like to give you little information about my parents (but excluding their names.) My Mother, I would say she's a hardworking mama, really works hard just to fulfill her dreams to us which is one of it is to live in a peaceful place. - She's a loving mother (according to her ways), but behind these, i would rather say, (honestly) not really all the responsibilities as a mother of five (5) children she'd done perfectly, of course, i understand, nobody's perfect even my mother. My Father?, hahaha, well just simple words. He is responsible but by major, he's ...

Sleeps at 2:00am, woke up at 9:am, magluto, duty sa work.... sometimes, sleeps at 2:00am then wake up at 5:00am...    -All these things became my daily routine, i can say that it so tiring dahil sa abnormal na schedule ng oras sa trabaho. Mula sa aking pag-gising at pagbangon sa aking kinahihigaan, lagi kong naiisip na sana "hindi na lang munsa ako naging 18 yrs old para hindi ko pa maranasan ang ganitong buhay." But as  i tried talking myself ( don't think im a fool ), i realized that i am just so lucky...Well, considering the fact that many people in this present time ay hindi nag karoon ng trabaho at hindi pinalad sa pinag aplyang kompanya...at ako? gigising na lang, kakain at mag " in " sa work.... However, not only that reason, bata pa lamang ako, i promised to myself na if ever i would not taking my college degree, i'll make a way para hindi ako magiging pabigat, palamunin at maging dagdag pa sa mga problema sa parents ko. As the commercia...

"Marahil, marami akong mga bagay na mababago... Marami akong mga bagay na dapat ginawa ko...   Ibang-iba na ang buhay ko ngayon, ibang-iba na rin ang mga buhay ng bawat tao. Kung dati, wala pa akong nalalaman sa mga bagay-bagay,  wala pa akong alam kung paano ba gumawa ng kasalanan o kahit sabihin nating ano ba ang salitang "kasalanan".   "Kailangan mo pang gumawa ng isang bagay na pagsisihan mo para sa huli, mtutunan mo kung paano ba ang maging maayos at mabuting tao. Kailangan mo pang masaktan at manakit ng iba, kailangan pa na may umiyak at umiyak ka. " Ewan ko, pero sa tuwing naiisip ko na sana, hindi nalang ako lumaki at naging "matured",  sana wala akong mga kasalanan. hahaha Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit nangyayari ang bagay na ito sa buhay ko; magulo, mahirap, makasalanan at puno ng mga pagsubok. Alam ko naman na ang lahat nang ito ay makakayanan ko rin, pro ang hindi ko lanag maintinhan eh kung bakit minsan, hind ko makayana...

"When there were tim es i was feeling so lonely and alone, i always talked to my God, i shared to Him my secrets, problems, hatreds and burdens... Some said God knows already, but i always answer them who cares? Its between God and me !" I've always been a kind of person that hid my face, so afraid to tell the world, what i've got to say... They always keep on judging me regarding my personality. Until, time came  tears falls from my eyes. Then i asked God about these things, He always keep on telling me this "You're My son, you are Mine... I made you perfect as what i have planned. There's no way to be depressed, they were just one part of your trials and obstacles as you live to serve Me..." Then i realized, those people do not know my real story. There were many reasons why i am so deter and happy as i lived here in the world. Firstly because i know that my God is always with me, from that point, i know i live long and happil...